I Know so Little

September 14, 2025

As I age, I continue to realize how little I understand things. The events of September 10, 2025, and the commentary in their aftermath are reminding me how much I do not understand about people and their experiences.

On the 10th, two terrible shootings took place. One involved the murder of a right-wing activist, Charlie Kirk. The other was a shooting at Evergreen High School in Colorado, the state which has been a tinder box for school shootings ever since the Columbine tragedy in 1999. The Evergreen shooter severely injured two classmates and then killed himself.

Before his death, I had not heard of Charlie Kirk, and I even consider myself fairly well engaged in politics. Apparently he was a vociferous supporter of guns and of his understanding of Christianity. In the days since his murder I have seen friends and acquaintances referring to Kirk as either a near saint or as the other extreme, like a second coming of Joseph Goebbels. I don’t know for sure. I have a hunch he was somewhere in between, more gray, as most people and situations tend to be. The level of sanctification of Kirk and the righteous indignation at his murder are stunning.

The same people glorifying Kirk are nearly silent about the school shooting. These are people who are often kind and welcoming in personal situations. Some of them have been in my home, were at my wedding, and have even held my children. Yet in some important ways we are light-years apart. How could such sometimes genuinely loving people also support retribution and violence? These people seem to be championing Kirk for the ideas he espoused about guns and religion. Somehow Kirk’s brand of Christianity requires guns and accepts violence. You won’t find support for guns and violence in the Gospels.

I hardly know anything about the school shooting victims, and I’ve only seen a little about the shooter. Nonetheless, he seems to have similar, though more extreme, views as Kirk. Hence Kirk’s supporters have made little mention of the school shooting. But I’ve now drifted far into the unknown. Those last two sentences were pure speculation. I could easily convince myself that those thoughts are true, but I don’t really know. What do I really know? What do any of us really know?

Very little.

I can try to empathize with other people. I can try to understand. But I don’t ever really know someone else’s experience. As soon as I pick up the virtual bullhorn for someone else’s cause, I’m turning my desire to understand into self-righteousness. I’m taking their needs and shining the light on myself. That doesn’t mean I should do nothing, but I struggle to find the right approach. In the meantime, I can try to empathize, I can recognize I don’t know everything, and I can pray. At least for me, prayer to my conception of God brings some relief, even if not answers, to the seeming madness around us.

There have been more high-profile shootings in recent years than I can count or even list: Columbine; Sandy Hook; the school in Florida; the theatre shooting in Aurora, Colorado; a Columbine copycat in Colorado who committed suicide before killing others; the Congressional baseball game; that guy on the streets of Minneapolis during the George Floyd riots; the Las Vegas concert massacre; the Boulder, Colorado grocery store; the Colorado Springs, Colorado nightclub; Trump being shot at and targeted again after that; the United Healthcare executive being gunned down on the street; the politicians in Minneapolis; the person who fired at the CDC building; and more I can’t quite recall. Those are just the high-profile shootings. There are thousands, tens of thousands of murders and suicides every year as well. So unfortunate.

To me, a fascinating aspect of many of these high-profile shootings is that most of the shooters are middle-class white males. We white men have so poisoned ourselves with greed, lust, arrogance, self-pity, and fear that we are the biggest cause of the problems that people like Kirk rail against. We can’t take any rejection. We can’t take any hardship. We’ll take no responsibility. It must be “them.” “They” are holding us back, meaning immigrants, darker-skinned people, women, whoever—anyone who looks or acts differently. It’s all deflection and denial. Some people pick up social media or microphones. Some people pick up guns. Both directions seem to be leading to violence.

And now people are having the same mind-numbing arguments about having guns or not having guns (they’re not debates because no one is considering real merit behind their points). Isn’t it obvious? More access to guns makes killing more likely. But what do I know?

Mental health problems are a factor. Bad or absent parenting are factors. Depression, bullying, and isolation are all factors. Without guns those problems would not turn into mass violence. Sure, there are other weapons. Sure, there are bombs and cars used as weapons. But it’s totally possible to reduce or nearly eliminate one of the biggest contributors to killing: guns. Gums don’t kill people; bad people kill people. Sure. But people without guns don’t shoot people. Seems simple.

I don’t understand how people can preach Christian messages and simultaneously call for access to guns. I assume it’s a result of fear. But I don’t know for sure. Jesus taught forgiveness and peace. He had his disciples stand down when the Roman guards came to take Him away. Guns are used for hunting and protection. Those are codenames for killing.

What’s the answer? I don’t know for sure. Forgiveness is probably a big part of it. For people who didn’t support Kirk–forgiveness. For people who supported Kirk and want retribution against the shooter–forgiveness. For the community in Evergreen–forgiveness. That’s all easier said than done. What would I do if I were in their shoes? I don’t know.

Maybe starting with, “I don’t understand,” is a good place. That might slow me down from jumping to a more harmful response. 


The Day After the Election

November 9, 2016

The results of this election are a wakeup call for America. Now, I have to admit that anything is possible. Maybe, hopefully, the misogyny, bigotry, and fear that we saw from Trump during the election won’t be what we see from his presidency.

This election was about gender, class, race, personal liberty, and fear. I thought we were quickly progressing on some of those issues. I’m coming to recognize that my community significantly influences my perception.

In Colorado we recently supported civil unions for same-sex couples; we allowed medical marijuana and the legalized it all together; this year we passed the End-of-Life-Options Act (an adaptation of assisted suicide); home prices have soared (though so has rent); and the job market is very strong. I see these things as progress. Many people do not. Last night, we learned that many people may not even be considering such things–they have much bigger problems, whether real or imagined.

Around the country, there is a strong, different sentiment among a significant portion of the people. We need to recognize that equality for many groups of our population has a long way to go. Those of us who see the good things in this country need to share them with others. We must also be vigilant and ready to stand up for the freedoms that we believe in, for ALL PEOPLE. Is Donald Trump the person to lead us down this road? His campaign rhetoric is dubious.


CNN analyst Van Jones put it perfectly: “People have talked about a miracle ― I’m hearing about a nightmare,” Jones said on CNN. “It’s hard to be a parent tonight for a lot of us. You tell your kids, ‘Don’t be a bully.’ You tell your kids, ‘Don’t be a bigot.’ You tell your kids, ‘Do your homework and be prepared.’ Then you have this outcome, and you have people putting children to bed tonight and they’re afraid of breakfast.

“They’re afraid of, ‘How do I explain this to my children?’ I have Muslim friends who are texting me tonight saying, ‘Should I leave the country?’ I have families of immigrants that are terrified tonight.”

Tonight, I read Words are Not for Hurting to my daughter. That seemed apropos.

A lot has changed for me. I acted and spoke much more like Trump until my mid-20s. I had to have a deep spiritual experience, a complete psychic change, to move past those prejudices. I am not proud of some of the things I did and said, but I’ve learned from them and grown from them. I hope others can too.

Nonetheless, I am sad for my wife and daughters (our first is a 19 months old and our second is due in January). Maybe she wouldn’t have understood, but I was anxious to tell my daughter about the first female President in U.S. history and that anything is possible for my daughter’s future. Of course, anything is still possible.

I’m also concerned about the potential dismantling of programs that are trying to bring our nation and world ahead, such as expanding broadband access and improving climate change.

To lesser extent, I’m concerned about regressing human rights: freedom of speech; access to education, equal pay and rights for women; access to healthcare; LGBTQ equality; etc.

Why to a lesser extent? Those things are much bigger than one person. And some of them, life affordable education, have been imploding long before Trump came on the political scene. I also continue to have faith that we will move forward. Every time humankind has been pushed to the brink of disaster, we have adapted and improved.

Now is the time for deep faith: in the Constitution; in our family, friends, and neighbors; and in whatever version of God we trust. Change is up to each one of us. Each of us needs to be the love, truth, support, and progress that we want to see in the world.


Holiday Satisfaction…with the Post Office!

December 20, 2012

I recently had a very pleasing experience with the U.S. Post Office. Why does that matter? Well, it’s the Post Office; it’s not exactly known for customer service.

We’re deep into the holiday season, and, this year, I’ve finished all of my shopping and mailing. See, I’m an habitual shopping and mailing procrastinator. My friends and family have put up with receiving presents late and getting them straight out of Amazon or other boxes, sans wrapping paper.

On top of that, I’ve put myself through a significant amount of last minute, next-day, expensive shipping. Ouch. Unfortunately, I learn the hard way, slowly.

This year, I was made aware of USPS scheduled pick-ups. I know a lot of people probably know about this and use it already. But it was a breath of fresh for me.

I set-up, paid for, and printed the mailing labels online. I scheduled a pick-up. I boxed everything up. I put it all on the porch when I left for work in the morning. When I came home, all the boxes were gone and I could verify their status online. It was much easier than going to the Post Office and much cheaper than FedEx or UPS.

It was almost perfect. The wrinkle came with a package UPS shipped to me. The UPS package was delivered before the mail pick-up. The mail carrier inadvertently picked up the UPS package along with everything else. At least that’s what I hoped. Otherwise, there would’ve been an even bigger SNAFU.

I was on the phone with USPS by 8:30 the next morning. After a couple of quick phone calls, I was on the phone with the person who picked up the UPS package. He was very pleasant, he recognized the issue right away, and told me it was back out for delivery. I felt back at-ease. I got home after work and the package was there at my front door.

Satisfied.


After the Election…What I think

November 8, 2012

The 2012 election is over. President Obama won re-election. Democrats kept a majority in the Senate and picked up some seats in the House. (In Colorado, Democrats now hold the governorship, the state Senate, and the state House!) Obama crushed the electoral map, even without Florida being final. And he took the popular vote. In fact, Democratic candidates have won the popular vote in 5 of the past 6 elections.

Now it’s time to get to work.

But, first, I can’t hold back sharing some of my opinions about the election, politics, the parties, and our government.

The direction of our society: To me, this election represents a clear signal of people’s desires for how they want to live and build a society.

The election involved taxes, debt, war, foreign policy, and other bureaucratic matters. But this election was really about emotions, community, and freedom.

The Republican Party, as it exists today, is not the party of Roosevelt or Lincoln or even Reagan. Today’s Republican Party is the party of fear—fear of terrorism, fear of losing money, fear of choice, fear of things that are different. People living in fear are not free.

Today’s Republican Party is the party of exclusion—don’t look the same, don’t talk the same, don’t think the same, don’t pray the same—the Republicans don’t want you.

It’s beyond intolerance and selfishness. Little emotions motivate like fear motivates.

Democrats, still imperfect, offer choice, support, community, and liberty—liberty in the form our country was founded on.

Obama’s campaign was impressive. He and his team got people to knock on doors, make phone calls, and focus on the right neighborhoods to get the votes they needed. Democrats are just doing these things much better than Republicans.

And, the Obama team sent a lot of emails. I’d be willing to bet I got close to 1,000 emails. All that Internet campaigning has been a trademark of Obama, but it really owes its roots to Howard Dean and his 2003 campaign.

Dean’s over-celebration may have ended his own presidential hopes, but he set the stage for a new strategy of campaigning using the Web. Obama’s team picked up the strategy, crafted it, and used it to support two winning campaigns. Every since FDR, that’s the best a presidential campaign can do.

By the way, Obama won Massachusetts.

Money in politics: This election season included a lot of money. According to the Sunlight Foundation, “No matter what part of it you look at, campaign spending for this election has been higher than ever before. It has been estimated that the first post-Citizens United election has brought more than $6 billion in spending.”

It’s not the amount of money that’s a problem. The problem is who is spending it and how it’s being spent.

The overshadowed story: Elizabeth Warren knocked off Scott Brown to pick up a Senate seat from Massachusetts. She is a true consumer and citizen supporter. Here are some of her comments that ring true to me. It represents the kind of honesty, humility, and realism I support.

There is nobody in this country who got rich on his own. Nobody. You built a factory out there – good for you! But I want to be clear. You moved your goods to market on the roads the rest of us paid for. You hired workers the rest of us paid to educate. You were safe in your factory because of police forces and fire forces that the rest of us paid for. You didn’t have to worry that marauding bands would come and seize everything at your factory, and hire someone to protect against this, because of the work the rest of us did. Now look, you built a factory and it turned into something terrific, or a great idea – God bless. Keep a big hunk of it. But part of the underlying social contract is you take a hunk of that and pay forward for the next kid who comes along.


The economy:
By almost every measure, the economy is improving. Here are a couple examples:

The stock market is up. The Dow, Nasdaq, and S&P 500 have all had significant gains since Obama took office.
Here’s the Dow’s performance:

Unemployment is dropping: It’s been up and down, but it’s currently about the same as when Obama took office.

The elites: There are just as many rich Democrats as rich Republicans. People living in the wealthiest areas of the country voted for Obama.
Here are the 100 wealthiest counties in the US:

And here’s the Electoral map:

People living in the most affluent counties in the country, other than in Texas and a few in Virginia, voted for Obama.

Moving on: We get four more years of a President who believes in working together, not leaving any one behind, and moving every one forward. We also get at least two more years of a divided Congress. We all want action from our elected officials, but we, as a country, are not frustrated enough to make it happen. Apathy and disillusionment are still holding us back. The 2012 voter turnout isn’t final yet, but it’s not looking good, even worse than 2008.

Luckily we live in the country with the most changeable system of government in the world with the most opportunities for citizens to take the reins. We just need to step up and do it.


A Day in the Internet

March 14, 2012

This is pretty cool:

A Day in the Internet
Created by: MBAOnline.com

From http://www.mbaonline.com/a-day-in-the-internet/


A Local Business Database and App – Good Intentions, but Off the Mark

March 4, 2012

Colorado Senator Morgan Carroll introduced legislation to create a business database.  The legislation would direct the Colorado Office of Economic Development and International Trade (OEDIT) to create the database.   Local businesses would voluntarily be able to register, provide information, and a pay a fee each year.  The bill also requires OEDIT to create a mobile app for accessing the data.

Supporting local businesses and encouraging economic development are admirable, necessary goals.  Sen. Carroll deserves support for pushing those efforts.  But, the methods to achieve those goals in this legislation have significant shortcomings.

First, the state already has this information.  The Department of Revenue, the Department of Labor and Employment, and the Secretary of State’s office, already collect most of this data and could publish it online. 

Second, the private sector is already doing this (e.g., Yelp and Google Places).

Third, charging businesses to register and provide duplicative information is unfair and unnecessary.

Fourth, and finally, if the agencies just made the data available via an API or even by download from their websites, the private sector could make use of the data with less effort and little cost to government.

A more effective approach would be to direct state agencies to make their data available. For example, check out Data.Oregon.Gov.  At no additional charge, reporting requirement, or effort to businesses, Oregon has made business information available to the public and to the private sector.  Oregon’s data platform makes all of the things Sen. Carroll is promoting possible without extra costs.

Colorado’s proposal will limit innovation by restricting the data to a state agency that does not have the expertise or resources to create and maintain apps and other economic tools.  David Eaves, an open government expert, recently wrote about the economic potential of open data and helped plainly describe the benefits of government releasing more data to the public.

There are experts who can do this sort of thing.  Government doesn’t have to.  Government just needs to provide the tools and resources for the private sector and individuals to do what they need to do.


Musings on Life

August 17, 2011

I haven’t written for a few months, not because I haven’t had things on my mind, but because there’s been a lot going on. Certainly, there has been a lot to talk about: revolutions in the Middle East, the U.S. debt debacle, the riots in England, the cast of Republican presidential contenders, along with stories of unsung heroes working to improve our government, cities, and lives.

But, I live in Colorado, and the summer is a distracting time of year, but only slightly more distracting than the winter. Mountain biking, hiking, rock climbing, camping, nightlife, baseball games, etc., etc., etc. all make every weekend here a small adventure. While I was last hiking in the mountains, I reflected on how fortunate I am to live in this state and enjoy its beauty.

Colorado is marvelous. From the mountains to the people, every day provides new excitement.

A series of not thoroughly planned actions brought me to Denver, landed me a job that has evolved several times and that I continue to enjoy, and connected me with countless inspiring people. All I had to do was take a few small chances and show up along the way.

All of my experiences continue to remind me of my inherent, moral responsibility to make similar opportunities possible for others. What does that mean? How?

In terms of character, first, be willing. Second, be open-minded. Accept possibilities and opportunities. Third, be honest. Follow through. Don’t promise what you can’t deliver. Build integrity.

Listen and lead by example. None of us know as much as we think we know, and actions always speak louder than words.

Most importantly, take action. Do what needs to be done. Do what you love to do. Soak up this life and give all that you can back.

With that, I’ll close with my favorite quote: “This is the true joy in life- that being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one. That being a force of nature, instead of a feverish, selfish little clos of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy. I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community and as long as I live it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can. I want to be thoroughly used up when I die. For the harder I work the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no brief candle to me. It’s a sort of splendid torch which I’ve got to hold up for the moment and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.” (George Bernard Shaw)


Cook County Develops Open Government

April 25, 2011

Open government efforts have been rapidly developing in cities, counties, state government agencies, and federal government agencies.  I hesitate to call the developing efforts prolific, but more and more efforts are popping up.  A recent article on Govloop, “How Many Open Government Projects Are There?”, helped illustrate the development of the open government movement across the country.

In January, I wrote about the development of the Model Local Open Government Directive.  The model was a product of CityCamp Colorado and a collaborative effort of CityCamp, Colorado Smart Communities, Code for America, the Sunlight Foundation, OpenPlans.  The model provided cities, counties, and other governments with a framework they could adapt to implement open government principles—transparency, participation, and collaboration.  Since that announcement, the open government movement has continued to grow.

The latest update comes in the form of the Open Cook County Plan from Cook County, Illinois.  The Open Cook County Plan, which is based at least in part on the Model Local Open Government Directive, “is aimed at making county government data and information publicly available so residents can more effectively understand, interact with and improve government.”   

Cook County Board President Toni Preckwinkle said, “I know that the historic lack of transparency and accountability has eroded the legitimacy of Cook County government in many residents’ eyes. Quite simply, a government that is transparent and accountable to its residents is a more effective government.”  Cook County Commissioner John Fritchey went on to say, “This initiative will allow for unprecedented interaction, allowing residents access and use of county data to better understand how county government is operating and to make recommendations on how to improve and use government and services.”

The Cook County government has clearly recognized the benefits to its citizens and itself that following open government principles will provide.  Citizen satisfaction and government efficiency are just a couple of the benefits of open government.  The opportunities for cost savings and public and private sector innovation are also abundant.

I applaud Cook County’s effort to become a leader in the open government movement, along with the federal government, San Francisco, Manor, TX, Portland, Vancouver, and many other cities, counties, and other governments.  I am also very proud to see the work of several professionals and fellow volunteers being recognized and adapted.    

With additional promotion coming at the Sunlight Foundation’s upcoming Transparency Camp and the Gov 2.0a Conference, I expect knowledge and support of the main open government principles—transparency, participation, and collaboration—and the Open Government Initiative to grow.


There Has to be a Better Way

February 6, 2011

While sitting at almost a dead stop on I-70 for 40 minutes on the way to Vail this morning I began fantasizing about faster ways to get to the mountains.

Several ideas have come to mind in the past:
High-speed rail
An extra lane
A zipper lane (that one may actually happen)
A high-speed chairlift from Red Rocks to Eagle
A tunnel

Most of which are not financially feasible.

A personal helicopter would be ideal, but, again, not financially feasible.

But, that led me to the solution.

The military could fly Black Hawk helicopter shuttle flights to the top of ski resorts.  Vail could contract with the military and include the shuttle as an extra season pass perk.

Benefits:
Less traffic
Faster travel
Military pilot training
Military fundraising
Being awesome

Cons:
None come to mind

We skiers need a solution; put your thinking caps on.

(Disclaimer:  This is not a serious blog post. I’m just a bit jaded about traffic.)


Local Open Government Directive: Building Transparency, Participation, and Collaboration

January 24, 2011

Just one year ago, Kevin Curry started the CityCamp movement to bring together local government officials, government employees, private sector technology experts, journalists, and citizens to share perspectives and insights about the cities in which they live and to develop practices for making their city governments more transparent, participatory, collaborative, and accountable.

In December 2010, I was proud to work with Kevin, Brian Gryth, Sean Hudson, Michele Hovet, Alissa Black, and Nicole Aro to organize CityCamp Colorado.  During the camp, Kevin, Brian, Alissa, and I began developing a model Local Open Government Directive that cities and counties can use to promote transparency, participation, and collaboration in their governments.  We modified, tailored, and improved the U.S. Open Government Directive for local government and, after the camp, we expanded the drafting process to about 30 more experts and supporters of the open government movement.

The Local Open Government Directive provides specific guidance for a city, county, or state government to develop information and data sharing practices, enhance and expand citizen participation opportunities, and collaborate with government employees, other government agencies, private sector experts, and the public.

The opportunities for transparency, participation, and collaboration described in the directive are becoming increasingly possible and efficient thanks to Internet technology and people’s desire to reclaim our government.  We will no longer accept the information government holds about us, our schools, our businesses, etc. being held behind government walls.  We will no longer accept 3-minute opportunities to speak at a city council meeting on a weekday afternoon as an opportunity to participate.  We will no longer accept government officials forcing their decisions about our lives without being involved in the process.

The model Local Open Government Directive is intended to be an executive initiated order or directive to the local government under the executive’s legal authority.  An executive leader, such as a mayor, should use this model to adopt a directive for the city to help institutionalize open government principles within the city government.

In partnership with OpenPlans, we are hosting the directive at opengovernmentinitative.org. There, you can view and download the directive and share it with others.

In addition, our friends at the Sunlight Foundation have created a site where you can sign up to show your support for this effort.

In the upcoming weeks and months, we will be reaching out to government officials to build support for the directive and to implement the directive in local governments.

We encourage you to show your support for the directive and to reach out to your elected officials to ask what they’re doing to promote open government and to include the public, to include you, in your government’s processes.  Together, we can make our government more transparent, participatory, collaborative, and accountable.  Remember, we’re building our government; that means we all have the responsibility to be informed and to participate.  Government officials have to do their part, and we have to do ours for open government efforts to be successful and for government services to work.

If you’re interested in participating in the open government movement, please join our Open Government Initiative group.

Finally, I’d like to thank all of the people I’ve been fortunate to work with through CityCamp Colorado and the Open Government Directive.  Kevin, Brian, Sean, Michele, Alissa, Nicole, Phil Ashlock, and many others are some of the most motivated, hard-working, brilliant people I’ve had the pleasure to work with.

Cheers to the future of our government!